to speak or not to speak....
The Spring Equinox is drawing near, that one day when light and dark, night and day hang in perfect balance. It’s been warm here in
The longer I’m a witch, the less I ascribe or am drawn to magic that involves a high level of secrecy, a feeling that what is being worked with is so powerful it would be dangerous in the wrong hands. I know the power of casting a circle and using the secret names I was given at initiation, but frankly, I’ve found that cleaning my house with intention is more often than not just as powerful, and certainly as effective in changing things between the worlds. Most magic I do now is fairly out in the open, with very little being veiled. Is keeping silent part of our legacy of being in mortal danger if practicing the Craft? How truly important in living a magical life is keeping silent? What does this mean thealogically as we begin as witches to live life in the open?
Perhaps because of equinox, and prompted by a blog by Anne on Elders, I’ve been thinking on the balance between listening and speaking, and on knowing when to keep and break silence. Being a psychotherapist, I listen for a living. This is something I do well, dropping down and entering my client’s stories, paying acute attention to the story that is being woven with their choice of words, hearing not only what is being said, but imagining and questioning what is being omitted. An integral part of the therapist’s craft is knowing when to speak and when to keep silent. When I speak up as a therapist, I speak as an agent of healing change, in the hope that my words assist my clients in what they came to heal or transform. To know, to will, to dare, and to keep silent are all things I employ as therapist. But I also employ the breaking of silence, saying and drawing out what has never been spoken.
Last week, after much reflection, I spoke out against something I felt was wrong. It was a personal matter, and I'm still feeling the repercussions. Being silent would have made things easier on the surface, but there would have been a festering that would have lasted this lifetime. I can't stand festering, but perhaps it's something I need to get better at enduring.
The sun is beginning to set, the city is awash in pinkish gold that soon will be dimming. When to speak, and when not to speak....for me, this is the question. I know I’ll be ruminating as spring turns to summer on the witch’s pyramid, on this idea that knowing, willing, daring, and keeping silent are the base and foundation of doing magic. Right now, I’m looking at silence. When does silence equal death, and when does it allow for something different and new to be born? This equinox brings with it the heightened awareness of how every truth is balanced by its opposite, how paradox is the heart of mystery. Listening and speaking. There’s a time and art to both. And I do it for a living. How weird is that?
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Thorn is writing about listening this week, too. It must be in the air. Funny that silence is usually ascribed to the winter, because my mouth has been closed lately as I strain to listen to the beligerant starlings and the cardinals singing "Gurdjieff! Gurdjieff! Gurdjieff!"
I love Katrina's question, that before speaking you can ask yourself what you're trying to accomplish by speaking up. What is your motivation? That always helps me.
In relationship and community I've been using the questions of Is it kind, true and neccesary? But still...The neccesary is interesting for me. That's a whole topic in itself. For me..the neccesary doesn't spring from my self interest but a bigger picture and wow that get's me in trouble and I'm relooking at it.